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my little kite
11.24.04 10:22 pm
I know. I do. And I don't forget even for second. It just didn't work. I absolutely, one hundred percent realize this. But what the brain knows, the heart won't accept, and the soul is pretty fucking skeptical of as well. And for all the sappy, drippy, gooey things I've said and felt, there are angry, bitter and poisonous antitheses. It was like the perfect storm, fiercly intense in attraction and just as fiercely destructive. And now I have to begin the extraction. As a survival mechanism, really. His things from my house, his name from my vocabulary, and him from my mind. It's spectacular, really. The intesity of the pain. Intensely consuming. But life goes on and hopefully up. Maybe love will fade just as fast as the bitterness does. No more late-night talks, no more late-night fights. No more inside jokes, no more spewed insults and accusations. I know there is something better. I absolutely belive there is. Something kinder, wiser, more tender and more fulfilling. I know that in this loss I have gained the possibility of something amazing and more profound. But for now, I'm stuck on the last page, reading and rereading the last line, until my mind convinces my heart and my soul comes around. "The end." _____ The Sunday after there was laughter in the air Everybody had a kite They were flying everywhere And all the trouble went away And it wasn't just a dream All the trouble went away And it wasn't just a dream In the middle of the night We try and try with all our mights To light a little light down here In the middle of the night We dream of a million kites Flying high above The sadness and the fear Little sister just remember As you wander through the blue The little kite that you sent flying On a sunny afternoon Made of something light as nothing Made of joy that matters too How the little dreams we dream Are all we can really do In the middle of the night The world turns with all of it's might A little diamond colored blue In the middle of the night We keep sending little kites Until a little light gets through 'Kite" ~ Patty Griffin |